I'm Analise. I'm 20 going on cynical old lady. I like beautiful pictures, funny things, words, music, food, fireworks, television, magic, dogs, Harry Potter, wanderlust, books, sarcasm, cheese, movies, and anything else that strikes a chord within my soul. This blog is a reflection of where my mind wanders and the things it finds along the way. There's a lot of food, whatever I'm obsessing over at the moment, and general randomness.
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#god it’s like he can’t get it off fast enough #he RIPS the helmet from his head #the armor of the man he loved more than anything in world and he just tricked the world into believing he was alive #he hates all of them #hates every single person in that room #including himself for agreeing to this
(Source: robbstark)
science bros.
There are no words to describe my feelings about this relationship. But I’m going to try.
First of all, their parallels. Both geniuses, top of their field. Both suffered an accident that physically changed them, forever, and not in a wholesome Spider-Man kind of way. Both try to do what they can to help others despite their own issues; Banner heals people, Tony works on developing clean energy. And both struggle, in their own way, with duality; Tony and Iron Man, Bruce and the Hulk. Two identities, one body. Only difference is Iron Man’s bad side is Tony.
I mentioned somewhere that Tony sees a bit of himself in Banner because they both have a monster inside them that they can’t control, a creature that springs fully formed from the id, the base impulses and the nasty stuff at the back of the mind. Bruce’s is a giant green rage monster. Tony’s trashed a party in Iron Man 2. Banner has a control over his that Tony hasn’t quite achieved yet; don’t think I didn’t notice Tony pouring himself a whiskey when confronting Loki. Tony is envious, fascinated, and most of all, impressed by Bruce’s control.
So he doesn’t walk on eggshells around Bruce like the others, because that’s not what Bruce needs. Tony sees Bruce’s restraint, sees the quiet, brilliant man making self-deprecating jokes in the corner of the room, sees the way people look at him like he’s going to snap any second, and thinks “nope”. Tony does what no-one else aboard that Helicarrier does. He trusts him. He makes jokes and jabs him and teases him and above all, treats him exactly how he would treat anyone else— he has a great regard for Bruce’s brilliance, and tells him so, but he doesn’t try to ignore the Hulk in the room. When he says “wow, you’ve really got a handle on this, haven’t you?” he’s not saying “gosh, it’s incredible you haven’t snapped yet and killed everyone on board” he’s saying “I know you have a handle on this, you wouldn’t be here if you didn’t, so I’m gonna poke you with this sharp object to prove it”. And you can see Bruce relax, and smile, and trust him back.
But then Tony goes even further, and invites Bruce to come to his R&D department. I’m pretty sure the two of them drive off together in Tony’s car at the end of the movie to do just that. And, okay, sure, Bruce is smart, but Tony’s tech is his baby. How many people get invitations to come and see his work? He invites Bruce because he recognises his brilliance, yes, but there’s another reason. He’s inviting Bruce to come down and work with him after this is over. He’s giving Bruce something to do next, a purpose, an alternative to disappearing into the ether to be alone with his monster. Tony knows from experience that being alone with your issues doesn’t end well, so for what’s only the third time in his life he extends the hand of friendship to a guy he’s known barely an hour.
And then, he tells Bruce to let the beast loose. Not just because they need him to fight, but because it will help him. If Bruce can take this thing that he sees as a curse and turn it into a gift, well, that’s going to lift him out of a very dark place. I’m not saying Tony knew about Bruce’s attempted suicide, but I think he had a suspicion that Bruce had been, in his words, “low”. So he encourages Bruce to take all that crap and pain and the Other Guy and use him to help people; after all, that’s what he did.
And it pays off. Nobody— nobody— thinks Bruce is going to turn up for that final battle. You can see the look on Natasha and Steve’s faces when Tony asks if Bruce turned up yet. They’ve counted Bruce out. Guy’s a mess, right? He’s too volatile. Doesn’t play well with others. He could never work as part of a team. No-one thinks he’ll come through when it matters. Except Tony. He has faith in him, and that faith is rewarded. It’s no wonder the Hulk is the one to catch Tony. Tony’s the one who helped let him out. He’s just returning the favor.
T________T
The deep thoughts and notes behind the Avengers and their relationships.
This.
Forever this.
i feel fit to burst. i wanted to sleep but now i want to run and scream in the darkness, see my breath in the chill, sing until my throat feels raw. i want to dance with abandon and punch something. my body is thrumming, i need to move and tear and shriek and cry. i want someone to kiss fiercely, i want to stay up all night telling secrets. i want i need crave desire
something
Could you find him if you wanted?
Each step a strike of lightning
across a sidewalk sky.Would you know his slow breath
over the sound of the waves
slow-consuming rocks?Would your words remain when
he touched your lungs
like a lifting kite?And if he wrote these words
because he dreamt he kissed you
that too is a wonder of nature.
My fault, my failure, is not in the passions I have, but in my lack of control of them.
Jack Kerouac (via thesaltwaternight)
(Source: thatfilmdudekalen)
i need to do laundry and eat something and read for class and just get up and move but i can’t i just can’t make myself get up and do anything i feel afraid of the world today and i want to cry
xeno
n. the smallest measurable unit of human connection, typically exchanged between passing strangers—a flirtatious glance, a sympathetic chuckle, a nod of mutual respect, a shared laugh about some odd coincidence—moments that are fleeting and random and unexceptional but still contain powerful emotional nutrients that can alleviate the symptoms of feeling alone.
(Source: dictionaryofobscuresorrows.com)
I am a jumble of passions, misgivings, and wants. It seems that I am always in a state of wishing and rarely in a state of contentment.
The Sweet Far Thing, Libba Bray
life is just so fragile and we forget we hide
and numb ourselves to keep from feeling
something, everything, too much all at once
that reminds us that we’re only here for a while so we have to feel everything, shove it in compacted into this tiny speck of the universe
in order we have to remember
Do not tell everyone your story. You will only end up feeling more rejected. People cannot give you what you long for in your heart. The more you expect from people’s response to your experience of abandonment, the more you will feel exposed to ridicule.
Henri J. M. Nouwen (via getoffthefloor)
(Source: nuper)

